Published: July 28, 2010
Dear Dream, How are you? It’s been ages since the last time we had any kind of conversation. I know you are mad at me for tying you down in some corner of my heart. I am being selfish in doing so but I just can’t let go of you and deep down you too know that you can’t survive without me. I still remember the fight that we had before you completely stopped talking to me. I am sorry for being a coward and letting you down again and again. Sometimes I feel like you are gone coz its way too silence but you do give a sign that you are still there waiting for me. And I thank you for that. I don’t know when you came in my heart but I still remember the very first time I realized about your existence in me. You probably don’t know but I was so happy to have you in my life. I read it somewhere that people without any dreams in their life is people without any passion. And to be honest, I felt so hollow inside as if I was missing some important thing in my life. Then you came along and brightened up my dark life with your light. It felt so right. I was happy that I had a dream, my very own dream (I still am).
But for every dream you should have courage and determination to fight for it to become a reality and I totally lacked both of them in me. I was way too scared to even say my dream out loud so people could hear what my dream was. Before I could even gather up enough courage to say I was hit by responsibilities and commitments which would take me far away from my dream. And being a person who totally listens to her brain rather than to her heart I ignored your very existence in me and moved to fulfill my so called responsibilities and commitments. You would argue with me for not following you (dream) and being a person someone I didn’t know myself. Being a logical person I convinced myself that following you would do me or my family no good. So, I turned a blind eye towards you and tied you deep down. Now after so many years I regret the fact that I was a coward for not being able to follow you, regret for the fact that I was way too logical to even hear my own heart. No matter what I do or where I might be I will never be able to fill the hollowness that I have in my life. I have become a person who lives only for the sake of living. There is no compassion in me at all. I became the person I feared the most. And there is no one to blame for but me as I was not brave enough. It might be way too late for me to follow you but it’s never too late for anything isn’t it?? So, I am writing this letter to you just to let you know that I am sorry for every mistake. I don’t want to live my life for the sake of living only I want to have the passion in my life once again and I promise you that this time I won’t let you down. Your wait is finally over as I am pursuing you with all my heart. P.S: My dream is to become a writer and an active sociologist.
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